This morning I was listening to a Jim Carrey speech on You Tube and he said something that struck me, he said “needing acceptance is making you invisible in the world”. I am not sure why this spoke to me, but it reminded me of something I had also heard Dr Zach Bush, MD say about when he was working ER and they brought someone back to life, the first words out of that persons lips were always “why did you bring me back? I have never felt so loved and accepted”.
This led me to remember another thing I had heard as I was contemplating
why it is so difficult for us to do things that are good and healthy for
ourselves. A teacher I follow said it is
because we are taught at a very young age that what we do has more value if it
is recognized by others.
It got me thinking, what do these three memories have in common and what guidance are they here to provide me?
Perhaps what we are seeking from somewhere or someone outside of ourselves, we already have and just aren’t aware of it, and if so what are the barriers to seeing/experiencing it?
Maybe my purpose in the world is not to be the best person I can be, maybe I already am.
Maybe the person I am showing the world is not really my true
self.
Maybe I am still a scared child waiting for repercussions.
Maybe it is only my minds perception that I am not accepted
for who I really am.
Maybe I am already loved and accepted for exactly who I am,
but my self doubt and judgement is making it impossible to feel.
Maybe if I get quiet and still enough, I will feel that love
and acceptance.
Maybe if I turn off the constant self criticism, I will
remove one barrier.
Maybe if I accept myself exactly as I am right now, I will
remove another barrier.
And maybe if I love myself, despite my perceived mistakes, flaws,
and judgements, past and present.
Then maybe, just maybe, I will remove one hell of a big barrier.
Maybe One just needs to have Faith!
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
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